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life @ 10:56 PM
I hate morning traffics... today's awful experience makes me hate it more. Left the hse @ 7am but i only reached the office @ 9am... If i take a cab or drive, the total time to reach there is barely less than half hr... How to not feel grumpy @ such early morning?! (and after been so terribly late, i still have to limp my way up tat irritating slope -_-''')
Even on days with no traffic jam, it still takes me 1.5hrs to travel to or fro... crap manz..
No matter how many times i change frm bus to train n train to bus... i jus cant shorten the traveling time... so sianz...
Another reason i dun really like the workplace is tat crappy slope & the canteen food dun have much variety. 1st time try the food @ their one & only eating place & i dun tink i'll fall in love with it, yet. And their price totally shock me.. How can a sch sell so ex?! (even food stalls @ Jurong Pt sell cheaper than them!) Haiz such a big place & there's only one extremely SMALL & STUFFY canteen. My previous sch (SIM) though campus isnt big, at least the canteen was big, bright, cooling, got lots of nice food & price much lower. Both r sch but the diff is so big. No wonder i dun c students hanging ard their campus...
Location, environment, food... non r attractive. Not to mention pay also crappy. Even friends r amazed by my lowly pay.. some even suggest i might as well work for Mac. -_-'''
I'm starting to feel comforting tat tis isn't a perm job... Jus need to tolerate another 1.5mths & i'm outa here!
Back to talking abt the slope, i really hate it. I was fine walking on leveled ground but after 'climbing' tat slope, my foot totally hurts. Than i was fine again during office hrs but when going home, i 'climb' tat slope down & again it hurt & swell up. Feeling so grumpy abt it.. Hope i can recover over the weekends & can stop the torture next weekdays...
life @ 10:50 PM
Supposely to be enjoying my free day today, which i did.. until i sprain my left foot..
*&^$%(!&$....
What a "GREAT" day....
Gona be limping to work tmr.. and its my 1st official normal working hour somemore... Gota reach office before 8:30am!
Just great...
If i'm late due to the morning traffic, i cant even walk a tiny little bit faster to THE OFFICE up on tat slopey "HILL"...
I hate slopes... and the long distance aint making it any easier... who's the person who build the office? Make it so mafan to reach there... Tat person confirm never walk by foot.. coz its so hard to walk to the office... I hate the location...
I thought the Ngee Ann Poly Blk 72 slope is the last most slopey place i'll ever walk for 3 years and now here i am with a bigger 'challenge'.... Why must the office location make my life diffcult... At tis time, i really wish i can drive & own a car of my own. Than i can stop all the whining & complaining... -_-'''
life @ 11:05 PM
1 week of work completed... 1 month & 1 week more... kinda feeling confused whether should i extend or not (if they do ask)...
That's becoz i neither really enjoyed the work NOR thoroughly hates it to the core...
The thing abt being a HR & given ALL the access to EVERYONE's records can be a gd & a bad thing. I can c everyone's personal records so i get to learn how to write better resumes & its really an eye opening what kind of jobs r out there (based on everyone's past job experiences)...
Than there's also access to everyone's salary.. i din mean to purposely c it but its there so i jus took a peak whenever i'm flipping & browsing for data here & there..
And its kinda irrating to c those who works the same post of u earning lots more than u though both of u r doing the same %$^#* work... it jus feel so unjust...
The words of the mgr said on the 1st day keeps ringing ard... "those outside r not performing gd enuf becoz blah blah blah... and i hope u can perform many times better than them..."
Than how come i dun get THEIR pay 呢? 都是temp... 待遇却不一样... Expect more frm me but pay them more? Hmmm tell me wats wrong with this situation?
3 simple words... 不公平!!!!
So i've decided.. forget it.. not abt forgetting abt tis matter, but to forget abt working hard for them. Why waste my energy on something meaningless...
But than there's still the gd pts abt tis job.. i get $$$ & experience... Very attractive plus pts in a way...
One more week of possible night shifts again.. Wed's not so hapi night shift experience is very much annoying. When everyone's happily calling cab to go home, there i am stuck with taking bus home. And if i knew i cant claim cab, i wouldnt have agreed to night shift. It only adds the unfairness. And its very miserable eating DINNER @ nearly 10pm, ALONE, in a place where ppl r happily dining in grps for SUPPER. Me dinner, them supper... sucky feeling. I tink everyone's thinking y tis woman is eating noodles alone at such late night in a grumpy face. Haiz.. Next time with night shift i'll jus go home straight..
Just 1 week of work & i have tons of things to complain abt.. yet i cant say i totally hate tis job either.. maybe i'm a 贱骨头的人吧... meant to suffer hardship..
life @ 11:43 PM
Got the news I was hired...
Mixture of feelings... Not extremely happy or unhappy. Just feel normal.
Maybe coz tis is jus a temp job... after 2mths its back to free time again, if i still havent get a perm job, which i somehow hope i WILL get 1 by then.
So contradicting with myself now. I should feel glad I'm earning again (& lucky for finally getting a job) but its kinda sad tat i'll be spending most of the time slogging in an office again.
Maybe tis job will get me back to the working lifestyle momentum.
I hope i will survive peacefully these 2 mths...
Will miss my high tea weekdays with YC & HJ... awwww....
[Cute cloud i saw on the highway... look like a cat?]
life @ 1:25 AM
*searching for a peaceful life...