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Last week darn not so hapi...
This week a lot more better as i get in touch with some hapi stuffs...
Yday visited AF at Thomson medical. Ok its my 2nd time visiting a hospital this mth but tis round its for a super hapi cause. Visit her & her newborn! Looking forward to meeting her baby.. waited 9mths for her to come into tis world. Hahaz...
So cuteeeee...... little baby is so cute.... always feel like pinching her cheeks coz its so chubby. She looks like a chinese (her parents r malay ^^). Fair fair cute cute chubby chubby.
Than aunt has recovered frm her bad fever but she's sorta no longer the same person. I jus hope the next time i visit her she'll rmb my name. Its kinda amazing tat a person who didnt lose her memories actually forget things. The brain is such a complicated thing.. hmm mmm mm...
Bro decided to lend me his PSP 'permanently'.. Cool huh... saved over 300 bucks! The only T&C is whenever he wants it i must hand it to him. Well i willing to do anythin to save tat money. Haha. havent played games so long tat i feel so rusty with the navigations. -_-'''
Ya i sorta hooked to the IT (Disgaea). Cant go to slp w/o completing at least 1 level. Haha.. I'm a panda, again.. ooops..
life @ 11:17 PM
:: life's unpredictable ::
Well i was looking forward to a peaceful sch hols but it merely lasted less than a few days than the world ard me starts to get "messy"...
The sichuan earthquarke.. so sad to c the death roll keep rising.. its been 14days and it still makes me wana cry jus seeing the news or reading the newspaper. Hope the living will be able to recover soon & rebuild their homeland.
Than within the same week was informed tat my aunt fell sick. She's the closest relative among all my hundred over relatives i ever have. Though i dun c her always but she's been reali nice to me when i was young. Well now she's all haywired in the brain becoz of some delayed treatment. It can be very extremely pissing to c some1 supposely can be cured but was not becoz they dun wana be treated.
I hate old traditional thinking ppl... a life's on hand yet they still 'think' a person will recover 'automatically' or some 'miracle' will happen. *tsk tsk*
Deep inside i truly believe she wont become wat she is now had 'some ppl' sent her to the doc. If i could, i would scream at them and give them a thoroughly scolding now. But than again wat's the point? She IS and HAS become wat she is now. These ppl only suffer with her coz now they have to spent the rest of their life looking after her 24hrs, 365 days non stop.
I know if i visit her, surely i cant take it, but i have to, so i did. It's EXTREMELY depressing to c someone u know ur whole life turning into a 'haywired' person. No one could hold their tears when the doc annouced she's "uncurable" & "permanent". I tink mum's the most depressing coz she's closest to her. Everyday she spent worrying for aunt. Mum worry aunt, i worry for mum AND aunt.
So 2 weeks of my holidays spent mourning the death, crying for the sicked...
Seriously i'm not feeling any joy of the holiday...
Life's so unpredictable...
life @ 10:12 PM
Free le! Didnt feel much rejoice on the day of the last paper. Too tired to even wana feel happy. But after a night of good sleep.... woohoo! 1st thing to do after exams... shopping & eating something good! Went Sizzler with WN. Initial plan was to eat waffle ice cream @ Gelare.. but suddenly both of us lost the craving. To tink we talk abt it many times & kept failing to meetup to eat.. than finally can eat togther we dun wana eat liaoz. Haha...
Wanted to catch a movie too but no good movies? Sheesh where's all the nice movies when i have the time to watch?!
Anyway spent the whole afternoon & evening walking ard aimlessly in Suntec, Marina Sq & Raffles Place. No sales ard lor.. so sad.. was hoping there'll be some good sales to grab a few pieces of nice clothes or SOMETHING. Return home emptied handed.. hmm...
Nvm.. there's always the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE! Hope tis yr got many good sale...
Rest of the holiday no plans yet. Mum bug me to get a job, jus 1 day after my exams. *diaoz* Gimme a break also cannot... But wont be bothered by her coz i dun intend to do anything.. haha... Shall spent my holidays gaming, slacking, eating, shopping, and more slacking.. YIPEE...
life @ 3:05 PM
Tmr's the last paper for tis sem... Still feeling lost, as usual. Seriously i duno wat i'm doing the past 2 weeks. Exams is making me blur... Turning forgetful too. Fri i actually forgot i'm meeting a frien! Lucky she sms me she'll be late else i'll leave her waiting in vain for me the whole night. To tink i arrange with her the meeting in the morning but i totally forget it at night. I tink my brain is filled with too much theories & concepts tat it doesn't have much space for anythin else.
I tink even my body is not working well.. There's the stupid cough (which finally i have recovered 99%). Yday for no watsoever reason my body 'rejected' the breakfast. I dun wana explain the gruesome 'incident'... Its jus weird lor. Anywayz at least i feel ok after the gruesome 'incident'. But it made me caution to eat slowly the rest of the day, in case the same thing happen again.. I'm sick, i tink.
Wat i need is 'rest in peace', as in no worries & burdens of stupid exams & assignments.
I NEED TO HIBERNATE, seriously.
life @ 1:53 PM
3 down.. 1 more to go..
Feeling so lost be4 i step into the exam hall yday... i felt even more lost when i step out of it after 3 long hrs. Wat lecturer taught doesnt match tat of the lect notes. Lect notes doesnt make sense to me coz the lecturer didnt go thru much of it. The exam revision notes doesnt match the lect notes nor wat the lecturer taught. THAN the exam came out wat was in the textbook... which i didnt study lor.. *darn*
And it was so ridiculous that the short qns were only 1 marks each... JUST 1 MARK?! How to write? One sentence answer definitely wont do.. but write 1 whole page also seems ridiculous n a waste of time... Every1 were so pissed by the marks.. Feeling kinda demoralized coz the whole exam i feel so lost. I'm so dead meat for the 3 papers taken so far... arghh.... Left 1 more. Hope it'll be better..
Decided to go out enjoy with the major mod gang on thurs.. They managed to convince me tat taking a day off to enjoy wont jeopardize my last paper, which is next mon, which means i supposely have a week to slowly study for it. Oh wat the heck.. i need the break...
Bro seeing me so keen in getting my own PSP has helped me source for a good deal. Now all i have to do is decide a color.. hmm choosing between white and green.. And i also have a problem of breaking the news to the parents. They are so gona nag at me when i get my PSP. Maybe i should wait till i get my exam results than get the PSP.. hmmm mmm...
life @ 3:04 PM
2 down... 2 more to go...
Tmr's 3rd paper seriously i duno wat i'm suppose to study. So lost... Its my major paper & i'm lost! *faint*
The major mod gang r planning for after exams celebration on thur.. I havent even finish the exams they already goin to celebrate.. envy envy... Duno i should consider myself lucky or unlucky tat my last paper is on the last day of the exam period. Yes i have more time to prepare the last paper but than again i also start my holiday later than most peps. *sianz*
Still tinking if i should join them even though AL insist i do... I doubt i have the good mood as them during the celebration. Still gota stress for 1 more paper than.. haiz
The cough has finally tone down by a lot after seeing the doc 3 times & sick for nearly 2 weeks. I tink the doc is jus as amazed as me tat y the cough is so 'persistent'. I had eat well, sleep well, rest well for a better of 2 weeks prior to the cough started. Doc also duno y i fell sick and lasted so long...
The body.. once u start to rest, all the illness will come bug u. So does tat mean i should jus maintain a hectic lifestyle? *GRIN*
做是也, 不做也是也... 人啊... 真难做...
life @ 4:04 PM
Stupid cough is making me aching all over...
Voice is turning to a whisper...
Back is aching like a 70yr old grandmother...
Shoulder is aching like its carryin 10kg of rice...
Barely can feel my tummy coz its aching too...
Talk a few mins and the stupid cough starts non stop... but than again dun really feel like talking coz i'm feeling too sick for it..
Qns: Wat can be worse than been sick for a week?
Ans: Exam stress at the same time
One paper over.. 3 more to go.. I hope the cough goes away ASAP. Its so hard to concentrate while coughing. 'Multi-tasking' during exam is so not suitable for me.. Yday's paper I was coughing so badly the ppl ard me must be super pissed tat I annoyed them.
Sleepless because of the cough and not sleepless over exam.. wats the irony to this?
Go away stupid cough...
life @ 2:16 PM
*searching for a peaceful life...
